Saturday, June 27, 2009

screwed

haha i actually remembered my pass after so long, *claps*! =)
reason why im blogging is , cant find other way of release.ive stopped cutting for good =)

wake up every morn thinking of what ive lost,what i can no longer have.wondering what if i didnt rush into things,or what if i hadnt ended it so abruptly,maybe it would have been better for me.maybe not =/ maybe what im going thru now is the best ending i could have =)

lost him,but havent lost myself.at least i haven lost myself.
just that memories are killing me zzz.
i kept saying its too good to be true frm the start,he convinced me otherwise,now hes the one backing out first.
his words doesnt hold , now i know.
yeah things change when feelings change.
ironic how he was the one who started things,but the first to back out.
i ditched him okay,but doesnt feel like it.
hes taking it so much easier than me,not fair =(((
okay i know , v drama.
details goes to my dairy =)
lyrics for now.



"Missing Me"

I love the way it feels when you touch my hand
Don't wanna let you go
I love the way you say that I am your girl
Don't understand why we can't go on and go on
Don't understand why
You don't belong in my arms
Ohh
And even if I cried a thousand tears tonight
Would you come back to me
And even if I walked on the water
Would you come out to sea
Now I can't spend my life standing by
Cause even when I miss you
You're still not missing me
It's funny how my heart just won't let it go
I just don't understand
It's crazy how the pain seems to overflow
The memories of you here with me by my side
I can't deny that you are the love of my life
Ohh
And even if I cried a thousand tears tonight
Would you come back to me
And even if I walked on the water
Would you come out to sea
Now I can't spend my life standing by
Cause even when I miss you
You're still not missing me
And I still cry for you
And I would die for you
I can't believe all the words I heard you say
And I still long for you
And I was strong for you
I can't believe that you'd throw it all away
I still cry for you
I would die for you
I can't believe all the words I heard you say
I still long for you
I was strong for you
I can't believe that you'd throw it all away
And even if I cried a thousand tears tonight
Would you come back to me
And even if I walked on the water
Would you come out to sea
Now I can't spend my life standing by
Cause even when I miss you
You're still not missing me
I still cry for you
I would die for you
I can't believe all the words
I heard you say
I still long for you
I was strong for you
I can't believe that you'd throw it all away
Now I can't spend my life standing by
Cause even when I miss you
You're still not missing me

you're exactly my brand of heroine.7:32 PM